Jun. 11th, 2017

Bad church

Jun. 11th, 2017 12:03 pm
silailo: (wah)
The weekend goes. I went around town yesterday to thrift stores because that's my idea of fun and I'm trying not to spend a lot of money on things. I also watched some movies and did some cleaning.

I wanted to go to church this weekend and looked around at what churches might interest me. There's a First Church of the Nazarene just down the road from where I live, and it looked pretty sizeable so I considered it. But then my dad mentioned he thought there was supposed to be a Calvary Chapel in town, and the preacher is one he's listened to on the radio. I went to a Calvary Chapel for a good portion of my life when I was younger before we moved to a Foursquare church (I love the fact the Foursquare church was founded by a female preacher). I looked up Calvary Chapel affiliated churches in the area and found at least one, but my dad found another, so I decided to go there first.

It was terrible.

My first red flag was when I entered the parking lot. Though it was a relatively large parking lot, there were maybe four cars in it, and the sermon was supposed to start in fifteen minutes. I checked the website to see if I got the time right, and mentally double checked that it was actually Sunday. I considered leaving and going to another church, but decided to stick to my guns. Maybe it would be okay.

The building itself is designed to accommodate a lot of people, but where were they? The doors were propped open but there were no greeters like you'd usually see at a church. There was a guy in the lobby looking at his phone, standing next to the doors leading to the sanctuary, but he didn't look up and greet me. Flag two.

The sanctuary was dead. I was probably the third person in there. Again, fairly large sanctuary with a lot of seating, but no people. I did another mental check to see if this was a holiday weekend I didn't remember. Nope. It's a regular weekend.

A little while later the guy from the lobby approached me and handed me a church pamphlet and said he's glad I'm here. Well, okay, took you long enough. A few more people filtered in.

During worship, more people came in, but not even enough to fill half of one half of the sanctuary. Still really weird to me. Aside from the sanctuary, there is another very large room with some tables and chairs, I guess a sort of gathering place for after service. There's a bookstore, too.

I didn't care much for the preacher. His tone was harsh in my ears. It's hard for me to describe it here. It left me a bit unsettled. But, then, toward the end of the sermon, he completely lost me. He went on about "this video on Facebook" about Bernie Sanders railing on one of the recently appointed officials (no name given), supposedly because said official was a Christian. The preacher then proceeded to mock Bernie in voice and gesture. He said, "And I know some Christians who voted for this guy!" Umm...... I'm one of those people. Thanks for alienating me. I haven't seen this video yet, but I doubt it's what he says it is. More likely Bernie said this official didn't reflect Christian values, but I won't know unless I watch it.

If we believe someone to be "lost," we don't mock them or paint them as villains. We weep for them and have compassion. This preacher didn't do either.

It's ironic because I had been thinking just a few minutes earlier about how churches really shouldn't talk politics and leave it to the secular realm. I've become more of a proponent of the separation of church and state because I'm tired of these fake Christian politicians who throw the name of God and Jesus around to sucker people into voting for them despite the absolute contrast of their actions and attitudes. I don't want my God's name coming out of their mouths. Their god is money. Even says so right on the bills and coins (I'm all for removing it. I don't want my God's name on that stuff, either).

I walked out before the end. I still don't know why the place was so dead, but maybe it had something to do with the preacher. The last Calvary Chapel my family went to, a lot of people left and wound up at the Fourquare Church. Even the pastor at the Fourquare noticed a lot of hurting people were arriving from that church.

I'm not going back to another Calvary Chapel, that's for sure. I'll try the Nazarene church next.

I hope I can find a church where I feel like I belong. It's becoming harder for me to feel like I fit in with Christian communities because my values have changed to much and have become far less conservative. I need some meaningful connections while I'm here because I won't be getting that from my roommates. I may be introverted, but I still need people in my life.
silailo: (mingchao pale)
I really should be going to bed right now. But I'm listening to music.

I don't know where my mind has been. I haven't really been listening to much music and I'm rediscovering some of my favorite artists or albums I haven't heard in a long time.

It's like I forgot how to breathe.

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